Soooooo I'm gonna be in Korea for summer studies for a few weeks and truth be told, I've just been feeling scared and nervous ever since I came back to SG from home about a week ago. I'm not even kidding when I say I haven't feel any kind of excitement yet. I can't even stand knowing I'll be awkwardly at one side with my sister while my friends exchange goodbyes with their probably big bunch of familes/relatives that I told them I'll be going inside first. Maybe I'm just insecure, maybe I'm just scared that I'll be too envious of what others have that I don't, maybe I'm just afraid that I'll be upset being blatantly pointed out that my sister is my only family here. Probably nobody will know exactly how I am really feeling inside, not now, not in the past, maybe not even in the future.. since I don't even know how to pen my thoughts down properly and I hate letting people see my weak side. With everything that has been happening around me since young, can you seriously blame me for having trust & insecurity issues and putting up a wall around me? If somebody else has been in my shoes instead, I would honestly say her life is pretty fucked up.