There's really too much shits going on in my life again. That I feel like I might go crazy. For such a long time, I keep promising myself I won't touch any stick or drink but it seems like I need them. On top of all these, honestly, I just feel lonely at times. Don't get me wrong, there are people whom I trust and I know are willing to listen, but it's just ... I can't help but still feel lonely inside. It's like a part of me is still missing.