Today on the long bus ride home, all I could think about was the recent two SA grades. Ok maybe I did deserve to fail Physics because indeed I didn't spend much time and effort on it. But Chem is seriously a huge disappointment. I know I'm not the only one who's upset with Chem's grade but still. Guess I was too upset that I was desperate in finding one freaking mark to jump a grade to make myself feel better and pissed Mrs Lee off and then pissed myself off because she kp me. The thing is I was really upset not because my grade wasn't good, but because I couldn't even meet my own expectation. Know whats the worse feeling? Telling your parent/guardian, well in my case the sister, your grades, and she just didn't comment a word on it. Y'know how guilty I felt though I know she said before she didn't care about my SA grades? I don't even want to let my mom know, cause I'll just feel a whole lot worse. Sigh.
Now my only comfort is that this is only SA1, there's more exams to come. But its so demoralising that I don't even know what to expect for the grades of the rest of the subjects and the future.
That is why I hate being alone. Cause I will just go about thinking anything and everything that happened.