But people like me are gone forever, when you say goodbye.

Rest in peace, Grandma. I hope you are in a happy place now. I hope Grandpa and Daddy were there to bring you to that happy place. It was upsetting enough that we didn't manage to see Grandpa for one last time after so many years. And now you're suddenly gone too. I'm so sorry, the sister and I are so sorry....... that we didn't spend enough time with you when we were back home, that we couldn't manage to see you one last time, that we couldn't manage to say goodbye, and that even though we really hope to, we cannot be there for your funeral. 

I can't. I can't deal with deaths.

“I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.” 

-Meryl Streep